Seasoned Reminiscence A Culmination

I searched you To be found else where Then I am itself destined to do another service And how long I wished to be loved by you Silence makes my day Even that has some feel Full of pain and love void May I be with you I said, but how will I live my abode My abode with you is far away When my heart ache As pierced needle prickle And the how long I had this, from the day I was born Only for you How wishes never fulfilled Then a cry never helps Then I will be a weeping boredom And hated everywhere And then God loves Sufferers I feel And this feel keeps on Never to be touched by my love Every line of my creation Is for you I never saw you But I feel you everywhere As i am far away Just talks of long back Memory started wiping Away, even good ones Never to be touched by any other thought I tried to keep it safe Because only that one Sufficed me Though day by day Pain bored And hated never came for Because memories that are good And mad

Sneha sandramam sangeethame viralmeeti vanna vanampaadyelle nee nee enthe kolakuzhal oothyilla njan enne kelkan agrahichu ennenum e janmam kalkal samarpikam Aathmavin vidarum nee ennenum snehamai pulkum en mizhineeril paribhavangal ethreyo kaathuvechu onnu parayan madichu njan lavanayamam azhakil moodi njan ninne snehamam mounam evideyum thadakamam azhaangalil thookum ee paranayam deepthanubhavam pakshe onnum mindathe myneyayi nee veendum enne chernu eki snehapravahangal dinamthorum onnu kananan polum jeevitham baakyillenu othi enikilum kothiyoornu mohangal ravum pakalum vaathorathe vaaneme ninodu parenju njan orayiram mohangal kadangal baaki vechu krishnakathakal cholli neengi thingale njan parenju orayiram vedanakal kaalpaadukal nokki neengi vaathilil chaare ninnu nokki vanavum thingalum mukilum nodum ore oru karyam parayan divyathayode sundara sneham sundaramai vanam eki ennal nokette oro nakshatrangalum Aswasichotte minnimaarayunna tharame

What a breeze today And it is storming beyond What I have found lately Your divine grace At every thought of mine May I be guided by your love Every song for me. Every creation bound to me Where are you...I just watch At the beauty of your thoughts Can I beg for a meeting And then the wind vanishes Over the sourced bliss And the nature makes me mad And so is your love You sing every song For the blessed heart of mine Can I ask more? Yep! Even if I dont You out pour in so much love Wind that out storm over me And the beautiful crazy mood Touch me as wind And I lay warm asleep You make me a cradle Lullaby songs when I need Love songs when I cry. Mood turned for good Then am happy as I am Craze in me and love in you Bind us together You are everywhere Sometimes in your gaze Sometimes in your talk Sometimes in your embrace And love and love with you Then I cant see you anywhere Just your feel and touch Make me mad Everywhere

I just wanted to watch some movies lately, but my kid is awake from dawn till dusk for Chotta Bheem and Shaun the Sheep and then I lazily go and have a nap or two. In the midst of all chores of cuisine factories I just peep into the lap top and have some word or two with some friends and just updating myself lately. Now after a gasp of breath of full air and heaved sigh of the boredom it bored now…oops I want to work again and I can’t stand anymore living empty and void at home…even though house work is a lot and lot in stuff… Lately attending interviews was fun and frolic …going two and fro  around the Bangalore city roaming around to see new faces …then as far as Electronic City for Infosys and Wipro. But  nothing matter much of my likes or price worthy J…Seems the same old old work in and out with little much of good work and faces.As much as I inculcate at home building poems and writings, I also started loving home cleaning and broom sticking…as far as keeping cupboards neat

Call upon and he is there Right out from a dark alley Shining bright and with full glow My levels of pain and depth The very hard truth of spiritual bliss And not a temple my presence ...Is there As I have a closed door on me And thy destiny bored of bitter time I called you out with so deep pain And my heart is a boon of wealth and love Fully bloomed to the sanctity of a sanctorum And you are residing day and night On my bosom and bubbling out Cranking in me and all You come and go out...and thy Bliss! And I can make the difference ...My Lord When you play in my heart in and out Curious about the worldly Maya And then peace is not out..but in which I have found lately Search the vast nature and deep within. Both a mere coincidence of similar fathoms Enjoying the inner beauty is far at peace than the outer natural beauty of cosmos When I meditate out of gasp of peace So calm and I lay bliss upon bliss! May be you should also seek this Because that way

Am I in boon to love you As I hold you in my heart And speak thy divine name The matter my life makes it At a peaceful elation state Controlled over emotions And then a gain at a level high Keep pace and no panicking My life is a story of divinity Borne at a tiny stage When all name of yours In different religions and caste Called out by me at deep passion And then flowers shower over me From as high as this blue sky And when I see your compassion ed Face of deep pain somewhere May I lay on your bosom You have a long dusty hair And in a white gown And a divine smile of nowhere And then the crucified you  waning in bloodless defeat Full of blood from hands and legs And nailed for humanity win The real sight I see every  other aurora e Then my pain is small and of least important When I see you head drooped down Even the nail filled crown That you were put upon Is blessed by you That is you and I know you are  full of com passive love Let me be

The bitter truth of far loneliness And the utter cry of killing time Every winter speaks out the same truth I am shattered at the world chaos When cartoons makes my kids day And a plethora of work schedules Keeping me busy yet lonely Then the vendors on the road Rotten tomatoes and onions at bay  The scenes I see every day The rickshaw driver demanding more And every bus is crowded and fast steady The shops covered with colored  Cuisines, curtains, dresses and what not The books and music which piles me up Still the lonely heart quench for that one And that only a lonely heart can tell Still my mental desire for that one Keeps me into my knowledge quests And more The out of body, the black holes, The tangents, neon’s, Orion and Even Medulla Oblongata Makes me interesting so that I keep myself busy with everything Still I am missing something deep down As I reach as high as you Lord Still that quench for my aim is missed As

When every aim seems far And as I hold my love near The farther my destiny Craziness new no bounds And every other day is same When the day I met you Seems far away Unconditioned! And I always love to fail Thy man who was out Of Madness! Whispering many a lovely Words! Lost in thoughts and Momentum! Magnetism is an apt word ? But it is just physics Facts and figures Makes no sense Where Love conquers Nothing can fathom Still wants to hold Everything Like Heliodor you shine And let not your wings Wither away In the storms of outer glaze The day when you held my hands And when I knew I was not alone Am still beside you  like an angel Failing  to notice Every time Keep me near you So that let me Reflect you Heliodor And am close...to you And just a kiss away

Hebophilia/ephebophilia are pschyciatric disorders for which there is no cure. Treatment:Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Civil and Legal Commitment:Adam Walsh Child Protection and Safety Act/Chemical Castration

Ingredients Milkmaid - 1 tin Butter - 120 gm Maida - 240 gm Milk - 200 ml Baking powder - 1 1/2 tsp Baking soda - 1 tsp Vanilla essence - 1 tsp Method 1. Mix milkmaid and butter in a bowl. 2. Add milk little by little, mix well and set aside. 3. Sieve maida, baking powder, baking soda, thrice and set aside. 4. Mix maida with contents in the bowl. 5. Preheat oven to 220F for 5 minutes. 6. Grease a baking tray and place a butter paper. 7. Transfer the contents to the baking tray. 8. Bake for 7 - 10 minutes and check if the cake is done by inserting a toothpick.

Some Bible Verses in a Nutshell... ST MARK 7:7:20,21,22,23 20.And he said , That which cometh out of man , that defileth the man. 21.For from withub, out if the heart of men ,proceed evil thoughts , adulteries ,fornications,murders, 22.Thefts ,covetousness ,wickedness,deceit,lasciviousness , an evil eye ,blasphemy,pride,foolishness: 23:All these evil things come from within and defile the man. ISIAH 54:54:4 Fear not for thou shalt not be ashamed :niether be thou confounded :for thou shalt not be put to shame:for thou shalt forget the shame of youth, and shalt not remember thy reproach of thy widowhood any more ISIAH 60:61:1 The spirit of the Lord God is upon me:because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings into meek :he hath sent me to bind up broken hearted , to proclaim liberty to the captives and the opening of the prison to them that are bound. ISIAH 66:66:2 For all those things hath mine handmade and all those things have been , saith the Lord ,but to this m

Nothing is in our hands... Almighty You are the creator... And you are the destroyer... Live the moment... And be happy/sad with What is happening to you... Destiny can never be Altered!

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“Everyone in the world should be able to sleep without fear, at least for one night. Everyone should be able to eat to his fill, at least for one day. There should be at least one day when hospitals see no one admitted due to violence. By doing selfless service for at least one day , everyone should help the poor and needy. It is Amma’s prayer that at least this small dream is realized.” Mata Amritanandamayi...

I love you Krishna I am Complete With your Love I just seek Your presence Every moment This makes my life Divine and Holy Graced To me you are a A Beloved Father A Beloved Lover A Beloved companion Whom my feelings Just Out pour You are just divine I just wish to die At your feet Complete with peace And Immense Love Can’t suppress my love For you It just comes whenever I see whatever you like And I always see Whatever you like You are Divine You are Full And Am Complete At the very thought of you Just want to know more Of you Just want my pastimes With you Krishna And I am blessed This whole life

(On a positive note for the Alcohols,Yet too dangerous if addicted ) Playing with the minds You? And Emotional Struck Life Saver and Killer Medicine The wondrous voyage  It makes When you’re struck sad And the Nasha that bibs You safe to sleep When too many sleepless Nights make you mad Good for Love Failures Career Failures Relationship Failures And also for Enjoyment Partying and Merry Make Then you are also a worst Drug if Addicted Which is so hazardous Yet everyone who tasted Likes it No Matter what!

Two very good words to curse your time or destiny!

God always sends Humans in the form of Angels when you are in need ... may be in the form of a friend , group of Friends .. A caring lover... A mother... A father ... A brother..A sister ... A helping hand so many relations you have in the world (Not Blood Relation Of course ..They are your very close Angels not to Mention it ),Even the people in the streets /strangers are Angels in one form or other who can bring back your Smile...sometimes... Keep hold of them at least in mind... because their very thought can bring back the Jive in you! My own Proverb/Learning...

May I know your name? Angelic! White Crystal Beauty Far from Heaven Beyond destiny Touch me with your care Then am as small as a baby Secretive, Beautiful Sometimes The journey is more venturous And destination Not required to bother me When I am alone Thoughts so beautiful Peeping in Then the mood in vibes Pardon Me I feel too good There are so many ways You can take your way to life May be this is adventure You have so much to conquer At end May be throughout Only memories hold good And Make you laugh And then love is a factor That holds beings together And for whom Memories bind  Without which Life is Meaningless At the death bed you have nothing Your soul and those good Experiences…Nothing else You just carry your mind And rest everything is rusted I am happy to have love rich in me To hold close and cherish always May be am so rude But that way I make happy myself When nothing can make me

(My friend s poetry ...I am taking your courtesy to publish this here ... )  There was a time Which I had spend with you How it has passed by I have no clue The only thing I have is nice memories Where u had forgotten all worries And smiled and laughed Today I take this liberty To speak on god’s behalf Who is as happy to see you happy. Smile Always………… Sarthak Nigam... Just bud like a Flower and Bloom fully with all love and Vigor! Shinu

When I have so much of stories to tell how can I sit idle? When I have so much of experiences to share how will I have sleep? .Now I have twin rats at my home who wander hither tither around the whole house and no rat poisons are working for them! Phew…So when I am staying awake at night I have some good company. I was always happy to have animals around and most of my pets were cats! Whenever I see any animal I have a thought of touching it warm and with care. Dogs used come around me waging its tail and I always wished to hug them dearly. Is this something called mental philia? : P. Or love philia for animals? Anyway I love it.At late nights I usually watch twin dogs moving around as couples and also love the way they adore each other with so much care. It is that we should learn a lot from these animals. Although in terms of Intelligent Quotient they may be a zero. In terms of Love Quotient they are 99.9 % true to the core! .Daily work makes you bragging for some fresh space these

Searching through my mind for almost many years The whole me is abate now And may I live in peace now Suppression at some hands And then budding like a flower With Lord s wish And then a search for me And how long I wished to be With my own family When some faces are so similar Unrevealing my existence Still to discover new things Both at the past and future The faces I loved to see And the holocaust it caste upon Which many a bosom failed to give I was happy in one Which I used to miss everyday Even without me knowing And when I came to know it Not a out burst of cry  Not a cruelty on my own Not a suicidal pill But Lord... You came to me  Holding me in your bosom Just as when I was held As a kid..Warm asleep

Let you not change yourself for any cunning people because one day it will hit back you , the way one got hit by you....

Tracing/Tracking ones personal things/private life through science/technology/communication and other worst methods is not a big deal. Understanding and reading the minds of many ... very bizarre and still keeping silent... that is a talent great sages have got... That is where God wins over Science....because only serving God you will acquire this... Hurt me how much ever you can Still I can only smile Because I have to live in the world To keep my life as a service I need to grow myself To reach back home And the methods you never know That is what I am growing When poison is severe Only method is bite back And use me for the growth of everything And then leave me with nothing else Hurt me how much ever Still I can only smile Beyond physical pain Our Lords son have gone through Severe mental pain Then I am only in the shore In the vast ocean called God s love

Is there a better place or fortune to hold than dying at the lotus feet of Krishna everyday like a Tulsi...

Dridarastra Uvacha... Dharmakshetre kurushetre... Mamaveda yuyulsava... Mamaka pandava shaiva... Kima kurvata sanjaya... Sanjaya Uvacha... Vayichu nokk angotu... :)

The last Avatar of Vishnu  " The Kalki " will dawn soon...when satanism/demon ism is unbearable Beg for Gods Mercy....The whole world is will be doomed in the real Tsunami/Sandstorms/Volcanoes/Earthquakes.....Nothing will be left... If you need you can still amend your lives and pray for his mercy...he can still save your life! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2KEk-amkhE

God is already offended and has suffered a lot seeing the plight of this world... If you want you can still amend your lives for the betterment of the society and through prayers you can still calm his mind....others severe punishment will be rewarded to all despite barriers/genders/continents/ everything... Beg for his mercy...

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The lines full of wrinkles The heart full of sadness The mind full of yearning The eyes full of tears All in all, I am in love True Love when it slices you And beg your mercy I feel a warm pleasure of Soft compassion Compassion to love all Nature, beings and dwellings When I seek beauty in all I am near to you God When Temple of a heart Receives a flower every time As I seek you

“Here I am, pen in my hand, ready to do the will of my God. Since I have no other aim but this, I begin with the maxims which my holy Foundress has handed down to me and which after her example I shall repeat many times in the course of this account: “Oh Will of God, You are my paradise.”

Spiritual Day ... Fasting... :).Breaking fast for a Sweet.. :)

Going way back to the Golden Ages And then through my present Struck at those moments of joy... Uff! Plagiarized by the new time... Those time when I used to curse... At the Golden Age, where I wandered... And the blue moon I have cast myself upon... Doing every moment till to this day... And then when I carry it upon... Burdens of heavy loads... Plummeted every where... And touch of that something... Like a begging hand... I crave for it... So many botheration... The thought of childhood days... When I prayed everyday... Pathetic about the busy bee in me... Wherein leisure in itself is a work now... Pledged my life for too much of responsibilities... And then the mirror says... You are just too old at a young age... Then bypass at random... To new thoughts and cravings!

Now my childhood days are crystal clear...its like picturesque remeberance..while most of memories is around Edakkad...now everything is coming back to me...the old sweet days...the time when I just started remebering things...I miss everything... When we are touched by something  its as if we're being brushed by an Angels wings

The Pineal Gland Activation/Christ Seed Activation Activating your Codons... http://www.in5d.com/528hz-dna-frequency-unlock-your-codons.html Symptoms of Christ Seed Activation: 1. Flood of Emotions 2. Repeated 11:11 (Micro wave oven /clock) Spiritual Call/Christ Call. Repeated things happening in life. 2. Pain and Stress all over the body 3. More Sleep or Insomnia 4. Cravings for anything and everything especially the food 5. Deep chest pain, suicidal Ideation and just want to fuck off from this world Unhappiness to Desires at will and Unbound Happiness... 1. Power to see the high energy force, wind is just coming just to see you... 2. Nature...beauty to see the 3 D space, the high spatio, the fragrance so high, moving at faster pace... 3. The Bass in the sound (High Pitch Frequency) as if you are in heaven... 4. Wishes getting fulfilled, solutions to every problem at will. 5. Food as per your wishes... 6. I get gifts every morning...Wishes are fu

http://www.maya12-21-2012.com/spiritual-awakening.html http://www.in5d.com/10-common-spiritual-awakening-signs.html This year there is no Onam....because my Grand Uncle passed away. He was old and was having Cancer. Although enthusiastic till the month before he was bedridden planting and making a garden full of plants...he was exhausted and taken to the Hospital. All the while I was feeling bad and having bad moods and my depression or the relapse starts when someone passes away in my family. The initial psychosis started when my Grandfather died while I am doing final Semester in Engineering. All the way, something was happening in me. Whenever I get this feeling I knew that someone close to me is going to die .While my Grandfather was ill , the whole nature before me changed...the death in itself makes my cosmos different. And the Om!!! Sounds reverberating everywhere and I could feel he being taken away by a group of people ...very very old and as I have seen in past. Now t

Trees swaying in a same row And a wind wiped across my face When you came by...just a feel And a rainy season Twined for this life And then for how far it goes You bind me everywhere Even across my thoughts and mind An emotional touch with you Every time a feel for you When a cry doesn't make any sense Or a happy me is no where I just think to have a feel of you Then am just as calm as sea Just to have you in mind Makes my way and life That chemistry It heavens Then just as random Shunned Just to make it right And then happy the way it is Ninna nodalenthu... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZqXVEhKp4Q

Talking about the work and work is making me nagging and getting into repeated thoughts and waking up with a nightmare. Having a kandakashani is the best time you can have... (Irony Irony! :P )and I believe in all these stuffs. Having not thought of God or having no time for these things make me bizarre and lately a shift in everything is required is what I feel. I was so depressed that I felt I can have a relapse or psychosis and then with no touch with reality. Soon I kept an appointment with Doctor to fix up things and with handful of medicines I returned back. Already 8 years of continuous medicines have rotten me. I just feel a very heavy me with lot of pains here and there. Writing a book is a dream for me and now wanted to do some good stuff and the adrenaline wave going high and am feeling as good as a feather up in the air...just waving up and down at its own. Can I get into my own thoughts and then into an emptiness...Held up in the heaven - is deep and deep into m

Another Relapse!

Beyond the vastness of the Universe I met the world of beauty I had an Expedition Exploring the wonderful make of God Into the depth of the Ocean And Unto the height of the Sky Unendingly miraculous, Almighty!  Beautiful nature makes me nostalgic Big or small, variant Creations I cherish I am beside you Far across, lovely rose bloomed,  Its petals so tender,  Busy bee feeding on nectar Concepts wonderful and ultimately Birth of a new one Unbound collections, innovations,  Euphoric and unlimited thoughts,  Make my world a True place to live in.