Seasoned Reminiscence A Culmination

Why this man is haunting…making me remembers those lost moments…. Is he an auditor or something to dispatch my worst habit at him and later come up with some other reason…? I know he is not my friend…not a lover since I lost that…and not brother because I have many and I don’t want him to be that… Why he is coming behind me to dissolute my existence of a mere human… It’s a pain in the deep corner of my side which uproots up each time when such incidence occurs… It’s that lunatic wave i.e. approaching me each time I do this…It’s the toxic negation of beautiful lost moments that I take each time I remember you…Please leave me alone…I can’t be my lost soul again… I am not the same human… Leave me alone…I am lost in this world with no one for compassion. Not even a single soul makes my life better…

Will you resurrect with this humble tribute? Will you keep this with you or Another vicious cycle dooming Will you find that…what you are searching for… You sing the song so beautiful… Your cry makes this world beautiful… But for how long.... You will die out of pain… Don’t ignite out of fury… This is a world of wisdom and toxin… Will another lifecycle change your destiny? Are you ready for a resurrection…? Will a rebirth make you happy? Because same blood and same mud Makes a human composition… Wires in brains differ… And all point to the same crux… Life is important…not love… Don’t you resurrect nor cry… You cry in itself is a melody… Pain is flowing in thy lyrics… I want you to be happy… Don’t you ignite nor cry… You are beautiful with golden plumages It takes another thousand years for you… Agony in the end Don’t you resurrect nor cry…

As my mind covers you wholly… It had been fathomed abstrusely Journeying with you in quintessence As I touched your bosom With care sharing a love note… You knelt before me… Fulfilling all my desires… Another autumn sprouted With a chivalric and mysterious Lover, the reason for my lovely dawn And times of romantic dusks… Fall and love fall… Sweet and bitter cruises Alluring moods Still holding back… Disgusting talks nudging me Cajoled still attempting to make it right… Memoirs left behind Still eulogizing you and will be till I die My love making your hands bleed… Nothing went right… Reminiscence behold me to live And never will another autumn sprout for me…

After a long gap I was spending my holidays in my own land .Visiting relatives and closed ones after a long gap was indeed an exuberant happiness .Apart from that the warm climate rejuvenated me bringing in the sweet memories of childhood .The Kannur special cuisines drove me crazy when my Grandma made the very homely, yummy dishes and its very delicious when it’s made from her own hands (which fed me all these years). Although the journey was tiresome, a 7 hours travel from Kochi ….After taking a light nap at my home (The Tharavadu as Malayalis call it) and making a stride through the yard which was once a beautiful flamboyant garden in the front with lush edible fruit bearing trees beyond…a playground for me and my cousins …we moved to visit our relatives… Many tearful eyes made me heavy when I poured gifts for them…although their happiness eased my mind and soul. The idols and photos placed in my home brought tears in me. The photo of Krishna hugging the cow was still lovely alt...

I have no words to say other than sarcasm that’s flowing thru my mind… A crucial incident paved the way to this vehemence…. I don’t know when it will change… A feeling of indifference to everything… Again onwards sincerity will only be a playful part of life.  I am bitten by a snake, the poison and the wound will take time to vanish and I don’t know how long…maybe till my life ends…or may be after some years…but it is really painful. This is leading into an soar vengeance…and will one day blurt…That incident will take time longer than usual… The bad taste of waiting for long, bleeding all years will one day show the way to the ultimate aim… I am waiting for that day…

I am feeling really nostalgic today…I don’t know may be the climate that changed my mood to this feeling…But I love it. After having a steaming pot of tea, I came to my office a bit early today…Having not much to do other than a little bit of work, my mind wandered about the very existence of nature and true essence it gives to all. The climate plays in important part to add colors of feelings to a dreamy person. Actually I am talking about myself and this feel which I cannot explain enchants me with a lull. This attraction in which atmosphere and nature are part of it brings in itself the real pleasure of existence. I love this air, the feel of nothing yet bringing in a vivid charisma of beauty. The fresh feel, the lazy feel, the goodness feel, the happiness of existence, all lovely beyond words… I am sailing in an ocean… I am an island in the deep blue sea… Only water surrounds Feels great to see the vastness Bountiful love of nature Embraces me and puts me n a cradle Natu...

When heat is at its brink Sweat makes me wet, Scorching heat and Then a pour of rain Winter made its way With great feel of coziness Under the cover of a cloth Shrilling cold and cloudy sky Flowers bloomed … A butterfly flew past me… A dream unscathed With beautiful petals … Thorns of roses Articulated the picture… I fled past the river To see the serene blue sky’s Mirror image, Rain poured in… A source of love pervades… Happiness melted and freshened The ventilated heart I felt a path of clear life In front of me… I will pray and pray… Till I reach the Supreme soul To make myself pure Winter came with a reason… For making a life pure The serene feel unfolds A million desires Of pure love … God I love the very feel Of your ultimate presence…