Seasoned Reminiscence A Culmination

Deep down Beyond Mariana Trench I lay calm...my eyes shut Superfluous mind Serine and warm Tranquility...I am at peace Far and far I see you Mystic sky... souvenir thoughts The swing waving in the air Curtains flowing in two and fro I see...beauty of my fathomed mind The experience so high Bliss Connecting minds Dark and deep Among the woods I wander In the scenic and subtle momentum Blessed with enlightenment I want deep tranquility Take me beyond and far At the deepest concave route I lay blessed and at peace with my mind

I am happy that I am relieved off stress now and I am taking a new direction to a way to success let alone my mind wander in loneliness. Now reading some blogs on Times of India regarding spirituality makes me more positive towards the worlds bitter and crazy thought structure. Maybe I don't fit now there or God has destined to move me further up a level, that is what I think, a positive way ...still when I am crutched from beneath. I don't know anything as of now, what I am up to or where my destiny is heading towards... Mastering my mind is a very big task of nurturing from beneath like watering a beautiful plant to grow more beautiful with elegant leaves and flowers and budding to grow more...This task needs to be done on a regular basis and I am keen on doing this for another year or two ...then take a break and travel to some great places where I can capture wonderful flora and fauna...go mystic...get into trance and wander as if the only free bird gyrating into hig...

Who will know me better than you Whom my secrets unrevealed Yet you know everything My pains...My helplessness When I sit alone thinking of you When I share my pains When I cry before you You came as a child To seek solace for me How much I adore you How much you understand me It's only you Whom my love and gratitude is for Silence and pain And when I cry and heal I feel a beautiful hand Soft and with red blood marks I am sitting on your lap as a child And you kiss my hands And a dove sits on your shoulder And I am sleeping on your chest Jesus you have suffered much For us...And still take up our pains I feel consoled when I see you And your beautiful eyes Fixed on me and you love me I know...that..Oh God.

Ha my love Did you mean That I am beautiful? When I am partially awake You hug me ...during sleep And then its just a feel I owe my life And my destiny To you Did I hear you say from far I love you Ha its just a thought. Then when I drink wine And am half asleep You say I adore you Oh that was just a dream In fact Who have ever said From the bottom of his heart That I love you And that's just a three letter word Which changes with time And destiny and money But I say I owe my life to you One who hears me from beneath Thats you...my love Maybe apart And then united Still you exist To hear me Thats love When all odds against We survive To love. And love is unique And so you are

Spontaneous Energy Blurting out my food Nauseated And frustrated!!! And it is summer Sweat trickling down my face And  thoughts Came out slowly Endless nights without sleep Provoking me To wait outside For a creative thought Grabbing a mini book I just drew some vague Pictures of idols Not turning up good My mood at its worse Thoughts are rather clumsy Unclean and clotted Dressed in a kurta I lay bare To seek out knowledge Which carved me all these days A single thought may change a life A right time for decision And my destiny written No time for tears You have to leave me In this vast world alone and alone

So when engineering days are back in my memory,I can't forget the final semester days .Maybe I am so attached I felt a terrible pain somewhere in the deep corner of my heart.As I was out of college,I moved to Trivandrum in search of a job which is very difficult for me.So I went for the Dotnet Course In CDAC.I roamed around the city instead of gaining some knowledge over there.I visited many places and made each day refreshing and live. Trivandrum is famous for Temples and I found it easy going to nearby Temples especially Srikandeshwara Swami Ksethram and Udayinnur Devi ksethram.Memories were bound here for me and I walk all the way to the house.I rather kept visiting the Sri Ramachandra Mission Hospital where they provided Gita Classes.Then I completely forgot Kannur and never got good chances of Visting Kannur ,though sometimes we go there in Train which was an 12 hour journey and I felt horrible. The looms and lores of the Kannur City was different from Trivandrum in ...

Maybe I am doomed I can only talk about destiny Or least I am weak physically But what is that going on? Maybe a torturing love Which is crippling me forever Or a weak me Which I have kept in front of you Maybe a love consciousness Make me more hurting I just planted a garland on you Kneeling down Begging to ease my pain The very next day My turmoil day started I just lay astonished I said to you...I love you And I am bound to destine my life Before you I lose whatever maybe I still hold on you You are beloved for me Will you get a better devotion? Than mine What lay before me A life vast and serine With your love And then I will succeed There is always a pain Somewhere down the deep heart That heals when I think of you Warmth of Love When I hold you near Still I am just a devotee