When God is Crazy

The importance of life and the value of being there in this earth is something which is a good feel and is important to each one of us although as a whole it only adds a count more. Only few sections of the people know you and rest abundant mass is ignorant about you .But then each one is important in one way or the other. We strive to live successful in the society and commune with fellow beings which make us the world.

Being the fact that you are among them and you are no different keeps you confident because you are likely to behave the same manner as the rest of the lot. So how about being different? Rather mentally different? Just think how queer it is the mentality of a lunatic if he is conscious of his mental disability. Living with the disorder is pathetic and when you know that mentally your are unfit to exist in the world without the medicines may keep you at low pace. Each and every feel that you have is because of your mental illness and the feel that your nature may harm others is disgusting.

But the most important stuff here is nothing is irrevocable and you cannot change your illness for better. Three days of no medicine may make you wild and cause you restless.The withdrawal brings back psychotic episodes of which there is no come back to life again .This may cause you crazy , thinking of existing in this crazy world when all are normal people around working with you together. You may hide your existence behind, but the fact that you are distinguished rather in a crazy way, is eating your head with additional burden. When you concentrate more on work, the thought replicates like a fierce lioness pouncing on you day in and day out. Hate to think of all the problems these atypical antipschycotic drugs may cause you while balancing you neurotransmitter messages.

When friends tell you, you are mad (for fun), deep down the corner that message makes you sad. How many time this must have damaged your self esteem. When it is difficult to cope up with relations, emotional problems makes you heavy and antipsychotic drugs make you religious , catatonic schizophrenia- the very word which cause you numb ,of which you fear the most ,are likely to affect you …Living with disorder is painful.

When I hate the way I am, I have no other choice but to live myself…thinking of no other option… :) - Unknown Author